MiAbootiful

Urgh! i hate my apartment. it feels like i cant go more than a month without something breaking! i should just have the handy man on speed dail.

hoot. my "creative solution" to a fake real ad banner we did today got choosen.

sweet moojoos, u can upload videos!
few more to come, but will do them in school since its a bit of a bandwidth and time overkill.

the roots gig was massive. the crowd loved them, maybe a little too much..... a towel was thrown into the crowd at the started of the gig, and landed quite literally on top of my head. didnt actually touch my head tho, cos before i had time to register what the hell was going on about a dozen arms piled ontop/infront/around me, then about 4 or 5 fully grown man was having a tug-a-war over a frickin towel. lucky for being short, else i would've been knocked around a lot more.

I think I did something funny to my knee trying to break dance. Trying being the operative word. Its more a jumble of arms and legs flinging around on the floor. Anyway, got my teeth cleaned at the dentist today. I have a great dentist. Good news for my teeth! But bad news on the bank balance. So insanely expensive. And I have to go back for fillings =(

Not doing too well. Been loosing sleep, loosing hair, loosing my period (too much deatil?). Have to get a blood test tomorrow (yuk) which I have to fast for 10hrs for. The doctor suggested I do it over night, as it should be easy to get the 10 hours when I'm asleep. Ah, but good doctor, I only sleep for 3 hours. 

I have a mean doctor. He seems to lack the genetic code for smiling or displaying sympathy. He looks at me like he's about to scold me all the time. He scares me. There's an 8 week waiting list for a counselor. Good to know help is so readily available.

I called up my family to say hi, but it turned into me just hanging on on one end of the phone, and my mum and brother arguing on the other end. After about half an hour, all I got from them was that they have had dinner and my brother hasn't finished his homework.

Luckily I was able to have a more civilised chat with miss Jules, who was able to work the dramas of Desperate Housewives into a conversation about my state of despaire. Looking forward to seeing you soon babe.

I feel so flat =(

I am having a bad run of annoying people lately.

Yesterday in the supermarket this man keeps staring at me and smiling, and since he looked normal enough I thought maybe somehow I know him from somewhere and was trying to jog my memory, but when we made eye contact he give me a big grin and goes ''oooh you are so beautiful''. Just the way he smiled and the way he said it was really freaky. Then he followed me at the checkout and kept staring and smiling. Erk, makes me shiver thinking bout it!

Urgh! Now today: I'm in class right now, and I sooooooo do not like this one teacher. Don't wanna use the word hate, cos its so strong, but she said something earlier today that just made my blood boil. Ok, none of the students like her, cos she's got this annoying-ness about her, but I always try not to judge and tell myself she's alright and it must be hard being a teacher.  In the last few lessons with her, she would always make mentions to me of my Asian-ness. Like bluntly point it out. When we were discussing my project she keeps telling me I should do something that reflects my background, bring in something from where I come from (er... what? Canberra?). I mean its a nice suggestion, but I'm not limited to just doing Asian style stuff just cos that's my physical appearance. And she'd say things to me like ''oh, I brought in this Asian magazine, its got a lot of Asian influences. I brought it in specifically for the Asian students. You should find it interesting''. Since I'm the only Asian student in the whole class, she'll only say that to me. It's like HELLO? Why wouldn't anyone else be interested in the mag? Cos they're not ASIAN?  Now the icing on the cake was today, when she was talking about the meaning and messages words and symbols can deliver. She said something like different countries have different meanings with their language, then she turns to me and goes, ''like how Asians have very different language to us. And Asian students often find it confusing and difficult with our words because they dont understand the history and background of the language''  All this she said to the whole class, but looking at me the whole time with that i-understand-your-pain expressioin! OH MY GOD. What an insensitive, ignorant bitch! I was so taken aback by the comment that I was speechless and it actually took a little while to sink in. Then I wanted to hit her!   The other kids in the room picked up on it too and all gave me looks, one girl even came to talk to me during the break and asked if I was ok. LOL.

I've been here so damn long I don't even notice that I'm Asian. I mean, I know I am and it does actually affect a lot of things,  which is unavoidable since we live in a society that likes to segregate people. But I dont consciously go around thinking I'm different to the next person because we have different skin. And people who does that suck!

I've calmed down now and letting it go, although now I really dislike her, and dont feel comfortable with her at all. But I'm stuck with her for this one class for the rest of the year. Damn that.